DIARY Kissa Sins 3 years agoJanuary 14, 202210760 views

COMFORTABLE DISCOMFORT

My favorite moment in the lifespan of a bad mood is the very first moment that I realize I’m in that bad mood. Someone will do or say something that makes me way too annoyed to be warranted, and when I tell them to suck my dick in some rudely creative way I stop and think, damn I’m spicy right now. I like it. I catch myself being a bitch and know I’m wrong and then make the intentional decision not to change my tone because fuck being polite and improving as a person on those days because… well, because I’m in a bad mood that’s why!!!!! Are you listening!!!!!!!!! Anyway, today is one of those days.

I think indulging in your shitty moods is an essential part of life. It’s clearly impossible to be happy all the time, so learning how to be comfortable in your own discomfort is the only way we’re gonna get through this torture chamber called life. Furthermore, I think intensely feeling your sadness and anger is the only way to properly flush out the toxins that build up in your head. How could you ever really be happy if you didn’t feel the fuck out of all the sad?

It’s also the only time I don’t care if there’s a murderer outside my window when I watch scary movies alone in the dark. I almost wish the mother fucker would on those days; I swear to god I’d be the worst person to fuck with when I’m like that. When I’m happy, I check the backseat of my car for bad guys when I get in at night to make sure no one is going to kill me. When I’m pissed off, I could give a fuck less; bring it on. My dad always told me I’d be a nightmare to kidnap. I’ve always loved that compliment.

There’s a certain freedom to being grumpy; usually, it’s easier to shut up and be polite even when someone’s mistreating me. But when I’m in a bad mood, I don’t take shit from anyone. Strangely enough, I thoroughly enjoy being sad as well, which has proved to be quite the slippery slope. Because what’s the difference between enjoying happiness or enjoying sadness if you’re enjoying it all the same? But that’s a whole ass other conversation I’ll save for tomorrow’s post. Today I’m just enjoying being a bitch, and I’ll leave it at that.

Love always, Kissa Sins